Salam pembuka bicara...
Today is juz another sunny sunday (27th may) in my life... everything seems calm outside, but inside who knows... but i'm hepi as long as everyone beside me hepi... or may be happier... thats is the things i always try to keep on my mind... hope so.
juz in a few weeks, a lots of things happened, a few things solved and a thousand things juz gone and washed by... everything that happen for a reason... and i juz dun no why... sumtimes, i tried to figure it out... yet it still unknown... wat i can do is.. always try to look on the bright side and hope everything will be fined... not sooner may be later... thats life, full of hope...
Life... sumtimes, it can be easy and hard... depend on how we handle it... and my life, juz another story; different ways and the same thing with a few chapters and plots...
and today, after a long time i've been waiting for someone to talk and to share... suddenly come out and gave me a hope that i lost it a long time ago... even its not much, but it is more than what i hope... thanks coz being so sincere even it hurts... i will try to admit it even its bitter to swallow... and it is more painful than wat i tot.. that is the reality.. not so sweet as fantasy... that i always dreams of..
this whole time, i'm too afraid to face this life... and even now... afraid of sumthin that unreal.. afraid to lose... afraid to try... afraid to change... afraid of this world that i'd been living... and too many to write it down... and it makes me weak and weaker... not even get better... so shame huh?
life.. is full with questions.. but too few answers and choices... and bcoz of that, we need to explore... to experience... to expose.. to excite... and so on... and for me.. there is nothing much i did... from the start i did a mistake.. and the worst.. never learned from the mistake... even im afraid to face it alone.. im the one who always love to rely on.. to depend.. and try to blame on the others.. im such a coward.. i dun know when will i learned my lessons.. and until when my life will be like this... will it be forever?
and one of the question is... do i hav the plan in my life? wat is my target for the next 5 or 10 yrs? and sadly... the answer is none! so, what is the meaning i live in this world? i can say.. nothing... and until tonite, im stil lying here on my own to search the answer...
3 comments:
In life, let bygones be bygones. When we walk, we move forward, bukannya backward. Whatever feelings you have in the past, make them your strengths to move on, bukan untuk mematikan semangat. Sampai hari ni, you still have Bancik and Kak Lisa. You might have lost somebody. But hey! I lost somebody too... forever. And here I am, still smiling.
adoi!!!... no comment!!!... nie cam tersentuh dengan apa yang bancik tegur jer???....sorry....
never say sorry when u've done nothing wrong...
and i the one who shud say thank you for that...
it is juz my feeling... its ok..
yup sis, im tried to be strong...
hope i am someday..
like both of you..
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