Coldplay - Fix You

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
"Just what your worth"

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I...

Tears stream, down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

~~I Love this song sooo much~~

Regretss... No Lah!

Walla... as i promised to myself... i went out to Alamanda again.. not to shoppin but to watch a cinema the whole day... i brought 4 coupons.. that mean i can get 8 free tickets for 4 different movies for both of us.. so enjoy... no more pressure... no more tension and compression... and i have my right to do whatever i think i shud.. im free like a bird... im glad... im happy... nothing left to regret.. not a tiny little bit. i guess im rite after all..

So citer nyer kt sini... aku layan movie sampai mlm... gelak2 dalam tu... kutuk2 orang dalam tu... maki2 org yg buat bising dalam tu... maklum ler... wayang free.. siap bleh kuar masuk wayang suka hati nk tgk citer apa...

Resign... But Not Give In!

Im soooo fucked up... totally not in the mood.. still the same after 4 days... and today is the ultimate... everythings was blamed onto me... how come??? i really lost my word to explain... and i still deeply calm.. i know.. once i act and open my mouth.. everyone will be blamed... so juz let me take all of it.. lagi pon mmg aku nk berambus.. dari tgk muka yg kotor lagi jijik tu... nk herdik ke.. marah ke.. tuduh ke.. so what?? nothing to care!

Dia tu memang cam sial, celaka.. anak haram... apa yg ku buat, semuanya salah... padahal dia jugak yg dapat hasilnya.. kalu nk ikutkan hati memang tak sudah aku nk maki budak laknat tu... geram dihati hanya tuhan yg tau.. so kt sini biarlah semuanyer tercoret... tercalar.. terhambur semua kata dusta nista... x sanggup nk simpan lelama.. buat kotor hati ni jer.. then i can relax... stay calm and be cool...

im try my best to hide everything... i know, outside i look soo mad... but inside, my heart was crying.. soo fragile... it was torn into pieces.. how come they did this to me?? what in the world they think i am?? did i do sumthin wrong?? i never.. now, i felt the world was so cruel to me... i know i can do nothin... and the best is.. resign from everything. didnt mean to run away... but everyone will be happy if i did.. so let it be. and i felt so relief... no more burden.. no more charge.. no more mistake... no more blame... no more revenge.. its end! thanks Allah...

no more hard feeling i guess.. im much better.. better than yesterday. guess this the right thing to do from the start..

and the important things.. i learn sumthin.. even i wished and hope it not happen again... but i know.. the far i go.. the more challenging.. the tough it is.. i aware of that.. but for now.. my heart seems to be not so much prepare.. not yet ready.. but im grown from this bitter sweet experience..

today is the last day im here.. after a few couple hour i made up my mind.. so tomorrow i'll be gone.. never want to come here again... this sweet place become my horrible dream to me... i guess that its... yosh.. esok pi layan movie free lagi for the whole day... ku kan lepas kan semua yg tebuku di hati ini... biar lah ianya menjadi mimpi semalam.. kutinggalkan semuanya disini... biarlah ianya menjadi satu kenangan yg pahit namun berguna utk ku di masa hadapan... wahaha~~~
da~~~

Cool n Hot... Totally Differ

Ahaks... becoz of my hot temper still not chill out.. i just ask my frenz, who else kalu bukan si yoe, to went out.. go to Alamanda, Putrajaya. huhu~~ actually we plan it oready... so, quickly i get dressed that mornin and have a ride... in ten minutes.. alamanda here i come!

The first... of coz la...tunaikan the main mission.. redeem the coupon for 2 free tickets at GSC Alamanda Putrajaya... at first nk duduk je kt situ dari pagi sampai mlm.. layan movie free tu kan.. juz tukar aje la kan.. sapa x nk, menda free.. huhu~~ but then got sumthin to do.. so cancel mcm tu aje.. perut pon sudah lapor, apa lagi copet2 melilau mencari kedai yg menarik utk melahap... akhirnya setelah beberapa kali kuar masuk... ayamas jugak jadi pilihan.. quite ok la.. first time kot mkn.. never tried before.. ntah berapa abad dh restoran ni bukak.. aku baru je nk cuba.. ntah, tak rasa nk masuk plak sebelum nie.. nasib la ko ayamas.

then went to second mission... one month advance shopping before my trip.. ahaks.. seronok hatiku dpt shoppin lg... ermm hilang jugak la rasa bengang... so shoppin its gud for me.. but bad for my wallet.. it really kempis now, totally different from my tummy yg selalu penuh dan bulat... haha~~ sapa dulik, janji hatiku senang dan gumbira!

then, jalan punya jalan, pusing punye pusing.. ntah baper kali round pon sudah lupa... betapa keciknya alamanda tu... seswai la tuk aku yg lazy bum nie... jam sudah pukul 2... yosh! wayang time... tgk citer national treasure 2... ermm after saw that film... i gave 5 star.. really great movie... ermm, kalu nk suruh komen lebey2, aku x reti nk ngulas filem nie... bg aku, kalu layannn movie tu.. orait la tu... x yh nk putar belit itu ini... lepas ni boleh la donlot.. buat koleksi, yg penting bole jual.. huahuahua~~~ duit masyuk jer... ekeke~~

it 4 oclock sumthin.. and its rainy outside.. pergh.. mampuih aku. cam no nk balik nie.. but dgn selambanyer, sambung shopping lagi.. hahaha~~~ then around 5 pm.. kuredah jua hujan yg lebat itu disebabkan apa pon aku x tau... ermm balik2.. kena tegur itu ini.. apsal lambat?? itu ini la.. bla bla bla.. weii ko buta ker mamat?? aku basah kunyup nie.. sejuk... hatiku yg dingin kembali berasap kepanasan.. memang x reti bahasa... nk jer aku berambus kuar dari situ... kira dh baik aku sanggup redah hujan ni tau tak! GERAM and GERAM again.. jiwaku kaco.. pi mati la lu...

Whats The Matter???

Arrrghh damn! can't sleep again.. everything because of that damn thing... damn you... i shud curse you to death from the 1st day.. plz dont dare me? coz i really fuckin hate you... and i will do anything to take u down even send u 6 feet down below or juz make my life easier.. can u juz go to hell urself.. the place you come from.. satan! ooo please.. i hate this thing.. hate this damn feeling.. only the word F come out from my mouth.. its uncontrollable... i really lose my temper and it burst out... so it better for me.. i guess.. felt so sick inside...

dun noo what he think.. how come he told me wat to do and wat shud not.. WTF??? bossy around me and show off like tat.. u r not my daddy not even my pet. And may i ask.. who the hell r u?? r u retard or wat??? can u shut ur big mouth for a sec.. hate me if u want but hear wat im gonna say... you're better off dead!

whats the matter with u, huh??? and wat r u tryin to do??? im totally confused.. did i ever hurt you in anyway?? did i say sumthin???? ermm.. so if i did.. or did not.. or whatever... then, listen to my apology; FUCK YOU! mind you own matter and leave me alone!

now u sit tight.. and hear wat im gonna say.. i don care if u r the luckiest bastard in the world... juz remember this, today im the servant and u r the boss.. but tomorrow.. you'll be dead! so juz get lost... alright!

i guess i can sleep now...