I Miss a Lot...

Huhu~~ first of all, sowwie to all my kipas susah mati... no update for couple weeks. im totally buzy but obviously more to lazy, moody and hazy. lacking of discipline eh? a lot of things happen but i care-less to share.. may be later lor. but for now, lets us enjoy the last week of fasting. wuwu~~ kinda sad... coz fasting month like a festival month to me.. huahuahua~~~ im gain more weight than lose it. duh~~ and my ramadhan resolutions seems unachievable... most of it. hikhik..so i will postpone it to next year lah.

ermm my preparation for raya... not much i can say.. but i order a few cookies from one of my customer, like tat nanas, sarang semut, samprit and..... thats it. well thats only for me. haha.. xkuasa la nk bawak balik umah2 nie...

my baju raya? ermm i asked my friend, si yoe to buy it for me since he already knew my taste, and hope he alert about my new size too... haha... baju melayu? xkisah sgt kalu xde pon, coz i dont like to wear it... its hot and itchy. arghh... rimas nyer. and guess what? i order a new perfume too... huhu~~~
hope he can make it before raya... please, please, please......

how about my cyber? so i decided. 1 weeks off. hooray~~~
already in raya mood lor... haha... and dont even try to spoil it!

Fight Oh!

Finally... my feet back on earth. but still i hate pak aji bakhil. im happy yet hot! my bro in law came here for sahur. i was waiting for him till i fall asleep. damn! why he cant just told me he went to fishing and he arrived at 4 oclock later. hangin la apa lagi. nak je aku ketuk2 kepala dia. i dont like waiting for no reason. eeeee tensen nyer.... majuk gak la kejap.. haha. but then i know its just wasting my time. bukan dia nk layan aku pun. i woke up and a with a little bit surly i asked him going out for sahur. huhu~~ we had a few menus, daging masak merah, paprik, sup ekor and telur dadar. enuff la tu kan...

and then we talked about business. we back on track. im glad. but we out of time. no time to setup properly. duh~~ i dunno what can i do to help out. i was hopeless. arghh bingung nyer....

and for the first time i ate nasi with lauk tumis pedas and ayam goreng for berbuka. its so yummy. yeah, i know my appetite completely recover. huhu~~

thats it. save the rest for later.

Ramadhan's Resolutions

I wish there is a rain tonight, but it wasnt. only a cloudy cloud accumulated and swift away and a small thunder i heard. its a fake sign. sigh. ermm nothin much to say so i decide making some ramadhan's resolutions.

Ramadhan's Resolutions made so far:

1. Fasting without ponteng2.. haha. of coz le kan.

2. Solat sunat terawih for the whole month. taun lepas dh byk tertinggal. duh~~

3. Dont wanna miss sahur even for a glass of water. and an apple too. huhu~~

4. Solat tahajud before or after sahur.

5. Solat Subuh at surau. its a hard one. ha-ha. ye la kan, sudah kenyang2, lentok la plak.

6. Khatam al-quran at least once. so 1 juz per day. 1 Quran, 1 Ramadhan.

7. Hafaz surah al mulk and waqiah.

8. ermm wanna eat buffet at least once at berbuka puasa.. hurmmm...

9. Wanna lose my weight as much as i can. got an extra weight for 40kg by now. perghh... im gonna be the biggest loser.. hahaha.

so, thats it for now...

Good and Gone...

Just done my terawih for 3rd day and its rainy. alhamdulillah. but still nothing change. im still the same as yesterday. my sahur and berbuka just exactly the same as what i had yesterday. so damn lazy to cook. plus i got nothin in my freezer except a basket of an apple and 3 bottles of 100plus. bazaar ramadhan is quite far away from here. so i never think of it as a choice for me and moreover H1N1 is everywhere. i know my stomach was so empty by now. but my stubborn stomach just cant accept any foods. and my mouth dont feel like to. i tried to eat something, but suddenly its just came out back in instant. its not vomit but i cant swallow the food. what exactly happen to me? im not being me. im totally wicked out.

im still waiting for the miracle.. and by that time i know im the happiest person alive.... is there a hope for me? i hope so.

Its Not Right & Its Not Ok!

I'm depressed. Frustrated. Disappointed. and lonely too. mixes those feeling and im totally damages. not a chance i'll be healing soon. no time i'll be ok. oh god, i just need somebody rite now to talk to. hope my bro in law come here sooner. so that i can talk and talk nonsense with him. at least im not all alone and lonely. but i know we both still depressed. i cant help it. its burdened me all night and day long. what am i gonna do? thought my family give me a call and have some sweet talk after hearing those news. but everyone became passive. seems doesnt care or dont really bother. and thats hurting me a little. well what can i say, thats my matter. but still i hope for the miracle happen... ooo its crap!

ermmm my fasting... just fine even though im not happy. last nite i just had an apple for sahur and a glass of water. im completely lost my appetite. its odd. and for berbuka i had a set of sandwich and keropok lekor that i bought yesterday with my bro in law at mengabang lekar. ermm nothing much to tell. too much thinking. well surely i wrote again tomorrow. daa... its terawih time.

Salam Ramadhan

Salam all... and Salam marhaban ya Ramadhan.

so happy fasting to you guys... dont try to ponteng2.
ermm... dh nk start pose lah, tak leh tulis panjang2.

21st Day of Fasting...

MY day fulfilled with surprise thing... hope it will end rite here and rite now.. no reason for me to get heart attack from all of this.. ermm this afternoon. a weird guy come into my cyber and dropped a few name card and then went away... came inside, left sumthin and go away without saying anything. leave me with big ?. i dont bother to take alook as it is nothing important to me.. then one of my customer asked me where did i get those name cards. i got panicked out of nowhere when he said this is ah long cards. huh? what have i done? i was terribleness with tremblin.. then my head start thinking about the past few days.. and it seems nothing i did wrong. and then the customer told me not to be afraid as he knew i was.. its juz a cards. unless you got sumthin to do with those wanker. ooh thanks goodness. why he didnt told me earlier. so i tore into pieces and threw it into the dustbin immediately.. and im fine now. stupid ah long.. dont ever never come into my cyber again..

My Menu For Sahur


My Menu For Break

20th Day of Fasting...

WHAT a surprised? my lovely parents came to visit me this morning.. this is the first time they came down here since i started my biz.. it is not they dont want to, but their condition not allowed them to do so, well i understood. and its okay. i knew, they did pray for me and thats what i need. first thing my mom did was checking the kitchen and opened my freezer.. i knew what she was thinking... she afraid if i dun have enuff food to eat.. hehe~~ then, she just smile, i told you mum.. im okay.. and got tonne stock of foods in my freezer.. she looked at me and said, u much more fatter now.. haha~~ yeah i knew.. i cant become more thinner coz my mom will be worried and keep asking me this and that... so thats why i never 'reduce' my fatty.. and always get expand by time goes by... as long as my mum hepi.. hehe~~

My menu for sahur:

left over from yesterday break.. huhu~~

My menu for break:

19th Day of Fasting...

I'M busy. and stuck in the middle. out of idea. tired to think. The whole evening i was thinking what im gonna cook and what im gonna eat? hehe~~ but thanks god, suddenly, my bro dropped by an hour before break of fasting. im so lucky. and so hepi.. he saved my day. hehe~~ he asked me what i want to eat.. so greedily i just list down the order and then he went to bazaar ramadhan.. huhu~~ half an hour later, he came back with a bundle of things.. its out of an order.. haha~~ in this case, its okay.. i tot my order already quite demanding. but he more egoist.. haha! thanks oniichan.. domo arigatoa. after that he went ahead to his wife's house at setiu.. i didnt know the hidden agenda until my mom called me later... he bought a new car.. i dont know what type of car, but anew car, probably for his wife and for raya. damned!!... hate to hear this for many reasons.

My menu for sahur:

Mee Hoon Goreng
keropok Keping Goreng
Air Laici

My menu for break:

Kurma
Nasi Putih
Kerutuk Ayam
Sayur campur
Ikan goreng
sambal bilis petai
murtabak ketupat
buah pear
tembikai
air oren..
and many more.. hahaha~~

18th Day of Fasting...

What a lousy day? ermm just sittin and continue posting either in the forum or blog... and to show you how lousy it is.. here is my routine in fasting month... from sunset till next sunset..

7.30 pm... shopping in case out of stock. or read the alquran and rest.
8.00 pm... terawih... sometimes fall to sleep till customer wake me up, my bad!
9.30 pm... night operation hour
12.00am... end of operation. or continue doing maintenance till subuh.
1.00 am... free time...or keep company my bro doing his work till sahur.
2.00 am... time to sleep
4.30 am... wake up.. prepare for sahur.
5.00 am... full access to internet while waiting for subuh
6.00 am... bath and pray and continue reading alquran
7.00 am... tertidur.. ahaks!
9.00 am... open my cyber... then when to sleep.
12.00pm... officially open hour.. hahaha~~
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6.00pm... tanak nasik time kalu mkn nasik la..
6.30pm... operation end, but always close at 7.00pm. time to prepare for break.
7.15pm... end of fasting.

My Menu for Sahur:

Kurma
Mee Sup
Epal
Kopi O

My Menu for brak:


Kurma
1st course... 2 keping roti + keju
2nd course... 2 keping roti + aiskrim
main course.. bubur nasi + ayam masak merah + kerabu tomato ikan bilis
air kosong

17th Day of Fasting... Oo Not Again!

IS this some kind of jokes. and why i'm being pissed of! i'm not avin a laugh! not a little bit.my bro shows up again today... of course with other biz.. dunno what it is and as usual im not going to ask him... it is his pleasure to go anywhere he want to..if he wanna give me a damn clue.. go ahead. like i care to think! aarghh i'm so fed up.. or may be im jealous too, well in some case.
huhu~~ actually, it is not as serious as it sound... im okay.. and gud. we both gud. may be at that time i felt like that.. and i cant complain. i have no right to say sumthin bad about other people more over he is my bro in law. the one who help me alot. why its so hard to thank him rather than got pissed with him.. huhu~~ its looked like im the evil one here. haha~~ are you hepi now.. actually im hepi when he came to see me regardless whats he's up to.

My Menu For Sahur and break:

Kurma
Nasi Goreng Tom yam..
Keropok lekor goreng
keropok keping goreng
Air Nescafe or ais
Buah limau+oren

for break tu.. i just reheat the nasi goreng tu.. maleh plak nk masak.

16th Day of Fasting...

NOTHING special happened today until my bro in law shows up. actually i was surprised he came again until he said, it was unintentionally, he came here to see his old frenz but not to see me on purpose. so i still know where do i stand in this case.. anyways, thanks for dropped by. arghh, why am i being too emotional.. so foolish of me! and really thanks to him coz bought me some dishes for sahur, but its worthless. by 4'oclock in the morning, all the dishes was smelly like a shit except the sambal bilis and petai. and he seems blamed me for being careless coz didnt put it into the freezer. and i wonder why he didnt put it in the first place by the time he came, oh yeah, i'm forgot, he's too busy to go out to see his frenz... whatever it is, i need to cook for both of us. thats great!

My Menu for Sahur:

Nasi Putih
Sardin
Ayamas Lemon Grass
Telur goreng
Sambal Bilis petai
lada jeruk
Keropok Keping
french fries
Air oren Sejuk

My Menu For Break:

Kurma
Nasi Putih dingin
and sisa-sisa lauk sahur
buah oren
spagheti... its for my moreh.
Air nescafe O ais

15th Day of Fasting... System Breakdown!

OH i'm so f*ck up! Don't know where it goes wrong... suddenly, in a flash, its goes insane. i checked everything but nothing yet settle. i'm really in deep hot water. the main pc breakdown due to unknown reason... its really gave me hard time. but i have no other option other than face it. If worse come to worst, i need to format this pc. leave me no choice. thats really scared me. so the whole evening, i tried to figure out, but with my level of knowledge about computer rite now, nothin can be solved.. huhu~~ so for tonight, no biz... closed for maintenance. geez.. its tiring.. im exhausted by now.. hope this will never ever happen again... arghh its been more than 4 days in a row i didnt get enuf sleep.. wuwuwu~~ i'm crying in my sleep.. ahaks!

My Menu for sahur:

Kurma
Pasta
Cocnut Jelly
Sky Juice

My Menu For Break:

Kurma
Mee Sup
tembikai + Oren
Necafe O Ais

14th Day of Fasting... The Freezer goes Freeze!

JUST after last night break, i rang up my bro to ask him about the freezer, coz he (the freezer) gave me a damn crap, no sound and he juz stay silent. its not functioning. then he told me to call my bro in law, it seems i got on his (my bro in law) way coz i knew he was on sumthin.. so i just ask him what should i do, or what do i need to check? but he resist and he said he will come.. dowh~~ and by the time he arrived around 12 a.m., the freezer was function as well as he used to be.. wat the hekk.. i tried not to open or check the freezer again coz im so sure when i opened it for the first time, all the ice was melting to cold water and another part wasnt cold at all. my bro in law said, it juz the cable.. and i dunno either it is true or he juz dun wanna make me feel more terrible as i am now.. huhu~~ im too naive.. there a lot of thing out of my head...

My Menu For Sahur:

Kurma
Nasi Putih
Sosej goreng telur
Ayamas Lemon Grass Chicken
Sayur Campur
Ikan Sardin
Sambal bilis
Lada jeruk
Air Oren Sejuk
Tembikai
Ketupat

My menu For Break:

Kurma
Nasi Putih
Lauk sisa-sisa semalam...
Ayam goreng
sayur campur
sambal bilis
Air oren
Tembikai & Oren
Coconut jelly

13th Day of Fasting...

THERE was a jamuan for break at surau al Muttaqin... (forget what the people call that jamuan) but somethin happen out of the blue and i cant join them.. ermm the reason why, let it be secret, let it stay it with me.. huhu~~ after the break, i spent my time went to hks, its a hypermarket like mydin or giant. not to far from here, 10 minutes walkaway from my cyber. a lot of thins i need to buy to stock up. i tot i brought the list, but in the end, most of the things i bought was out of my list.. hehe~~ and end up with the cost more than 100 bucks. wahaha~~

My Menu For Sahur:

Kurma
Nasi Putih
Hot & Spicy Ayamas
another half of ikan Goreng
Lada Jeruk
Oren & Limau
Air Nescafe O Ais

My Menu for Break:

Kurma
Pasta with spagheti sauce
Ayam seketul
Buah Oren
Air Nescafe O Sejuk

12th Day of Fasting... My Frenzy Freezer is Comin.

AROUND 12 p.m., i was surprised by my bro, he's comin here and bring me another freezer for my own used. not for comercial. even though its not a new one, and originally came from my house.. so to speak my house got a new freezer, not my kitchen. but whatever it is, i'm hepi. a lots of thing i can do when he (my freeser not my bro) was around like i can buy an ice cream, more hot dog, more chicken, more cheese, more vegetables, more frozen foods, and more and more ma fabret. that was wonderful thing, dont you think? one more thing, about washing machine.. ermm i guess, its better if i dun have it. ahaks so that my bro and bro in law will come here more often to pick up my dirty cloths and pants. hahaha~~ what an amazing thought?

afterward, my bro went to bazaar ramadhan and me just doing my routine job, sit tight at counter table waiting for my lovely and lucky customers. ermmm my customer.. well i can't complain. hope it will be keep comin and hesitate to leave.. hikhik.

and fast forward to end of the day, its a break of fasting. can't wait for that. i tot my bro will stay with me till this moment, sadly he is not. yeah i know, he got family waiting for him at home. well it is not that bad to be alone... more over i dont need to share my foods with anyone.. muahaha~~

My Menu For Sahur:

Kurma
Nasi Putih
Chicken Curry in the can
2 sosej ayam
Telur Goreng double
Lada jeruk
Keropok Keping
Air oren Sejuk

My Menu For Break:

Kurma
Nasi Putih
Ikan Goreng
Sambal bilis petai
sayur campur
Lada jeruk
Murtabak ayam 2 biji
ketupat
Buah tembikai
Air Lemon Tea

11th Day of Fasting...

AS far as i'm remembered, nothin much happened today... needless to say, i dont need this entry.. but due to my calculating progress, i need this one... haha~~ watever. coz i'm trying to make a record, at least one post per day in this month.. huhu~ hope i can make it and catch up with the time.. and the time seems run away from me. so i need to roll up my sleeves and do whatever it takes to accomplish my task... let's get the ball rollin... rollin and rollin and again till the last day.. it will be more faster that way as i cant run a miles.. pose lah katakan.. haha~~ i'm juz out of my mind...

my work rite now.. ermmm im not going to talk about my work.. jus not rite now! may be some other time.

my life... seems so boring, im stuck in here. nowhere to go till i make a tonne.. hehe~~

my situation... out of hand.. tired.. not enuff sleep...


My Menu For Sahur:

Kurma
Nasi Putih
Telur Goreng + Kicap
Ayamas Hot & Spicy Drumstick
lada jeruk
Buah Epal
Air Oren Sejuk

My Menu for Break:

Kurma
Spagheti
Buah Oren
Coconut jelly
Air oren Sejuk

10th Day of Fasting...

I'M continue my calculating... and it seems so fast. one third already... and nothin much differ from yesterday... ermmm wonder why, did i eat sumthin wrong? or may be it is just sick... i told to kids just be quiet... they seems so energetic, its weird. i pretend to be surprised, when they told me they did not fasting. yup i knew they don't. without a little bit shame they told me, like they proud of it... time really changed and so did they. what happened to new generation? is this the new world? new age? or i am the one who left behind? if it really is... im rather left behind and stay with my honour and pride... huhu~~
and im truly surprised, its not just kid, but teenager worse than those kids. they did not fasting just like kids! i can smell the 'cigar perfume' from each one of them.. and they act like nothin happen... so sad. i'm much sadder than yesterday. let me just continue with my fasting...

Mt Menu For Sahur:
Sowwie.. still no pic.. napew ek... tipon out of bateri... huhu~~
Kurma
Nasi Putih
Tom yam Ayam
Ikan Goreng
Ikan Masak Tomato
Budu
Air Oren
Buah Tembikai

My Menu for Break:
Open sesame~~~


Tadaa~~~

Kurma
Nasi Putih
Kuah Tom Yam
Ikan Masak Tomato
Ikan Singgam
Budu ... dh abis daaa till the last drop!
Air Oren Sejuk
Buah Oren & Pear

My Moreh:
Roti 2 kpg + 1 kpg keju
Coconut Jelly
Air Lemon Tea

9th Day of Fasting...

MY bro in law shows up again... but i dunno why? he seems so care.. may be after what i said to him last time.. kuikuikui~~ no i dun think so.. but why eh? he once said to me after few days he didnt shows up, why u look sad? why so gloomy? yup indeed i am.. i'm sad + tired + headache + stomachache + saketgigi lagi... mcm2 sakit daa... hehe whatever, i'm hepy when he was around.. ahaks! coz he will bring me my mom's cooking... its out of this world! + i got sumone to talk to... and he continue doing a thing that i never really care or think before... huhu~~

My Menu for Sahur:

kurma
Nasi Goreng Paprik... xder la paprik sgt.. bhn x cukup
-taruk telur, cendawan and sosej jer...
Keropok keping.. mesti ada ni kalu makan nasi goreng or mee goreng
Kari Ayam (dlm tin nyer)
Lada jeruk
Air 100Plus

My Menu for Break:
Sorry, No Picture...

Kurma
Nasi Putih
Tom Yam Ayam
Ayam Panggang
Ikan Masak Tomato
Ikan Goreng
Ikan Singgam
Budu
Lada Jeruk
Air Oren Ais

My Moreh
Air Oren
Pengat Pisang
Pita Kebab
Roti John

ps: pic makanan terpaksa diletakkan dibawah read more utk mengelakkan sebarang tindakan diluar kawalan di bulan pose nie, especially si fasha tu.. hikhik.

pps:suddenly i forgot what word stand for saketgigi --> teeth ache? ermm... sound suspicous.. arghh its like pulling teeth to get it.

8th Day of Fasting...

My Menu for Sahur:

Nasi Putih
Tom Yam
Ayam Goreng
Lada Jeruk
Air Oren Sejuk


My Menu for Break:

Kurma
Nasi Putih
Hot & Spicy Drumstick
Tom Yam (kuah jer...)
Budu
Lada Jeruk
Air Oren Sejuk
Buah Tembikai
Puding Buah

AFTER terawih, i was shocked by sumthin weird in the plastic bags at the corner.. afraid to touch, so i juz let it be there... dunno where it came from... it is from sky, or just pop up into my cyber... haha~~ its puzzled me a little till 2 a.m., it is when my bro in law knocked the door. geez... at least leave me some note or msg. hump! to hide his feeling of guilty (dunno why he acted so awkward) and actually he doesnt need to feel guilty coz he doesn't, he rushed in and explained to me bla bla bla (im juz laughing inside... i already know his style..) and surprised why i didnt touch the 'thing' in the plastic bags.... and he opened it and put it into the freezer and lastly, asked me to prepare, he shown me sumthin but i dont get it what was that.. ooo its a hairclipper machine.. actually he came here coz my dad told him so.. to cut my hair... my dad so worried about that, i dunno why but he (my dad) care so much about his sons hair, included married son... huhu~~ its been more than 3 months i didnt cut it.. so you know how messy i looked and no wonder my dad worried like hell... and i just said to my bro in law.. try to rilex and nothin to be worried. everything fine! but in sarcasm way, hehe.. he need to be punished anyway... muahaha~~~